My Kundalini Woke Me

My kundalini woke me

Before anything was said

From my awareness rose the sweetness

While lying still in Bed

Wondering about the knocking 

Upon my Svadhishthana

Remembering the watery base resting

Surrounding these pelvic bones

When this communication swells

From deep within this space

A waterfall of surrender

Releases ancient haste

Because my heart invited her

To elevate her status

To expand the sensations

While walking up my ladder

To traverse through the heart center

To continue up my spine

To meet me at skull junction

The other base of mine

To shake and pour 

Into this, my soul

To merge and meld

During this silent time

My kundalini woke me

Before getting out of bed

My kundalini woke me

And this is what she said

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Not Afraid of Your Hate

I’m not afraid of your hate

Your distain

Your constant blame

The worry from before is no more

Dropping those things from my past

That would have me believe they

Were me

Were my identity

Were my make up

Were my destiny

I’m okay if you hate me

You don’t have to like me

I don’t need you to accept me

Or give me attention

Or demonstrate your love

Because I already do that

For myself

And when I am that

That recognition of love

I am that for you

And I don’t need to

Demonstrate that

Show you

Tell you

Prove to you

Because it’s already happening

When something is already happening

There is nothing to get

There’s nothing to convince

There’s no choice in the matter

It already is

And I’m fine with that

So go ahead and hate me if you need to do that

I don’t wish it for you

But if it somehow helps you move through your pain

To help you recognize yourself

Hate me more

Twist It

Bring it on

Because, this fear that was

Is dropping

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If I Am A Rose

If I am a rose

And you are my love

Take your time love

To open me up

I am delicate

Yet resilient 

Take your time

To see me completely

Breathe in the sweetness

That I am

Feel the warmth

That I am

Savor my layers

Of petaled softness

Give me just enough

To want to thrive

Nurture my nectar

Validate my splendor

If I am a rose

And you are my love

Together, we can blossom

 With each rising sun


Written on a day the rain came with it's thundering companion.
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God’s Mural

I look up and see the broken patterns

The clouds outlined in deep, dark blue

Highlighted by the full moon’s rising

Seemingly still

Yet those subtle changes do occur

When suddenly a sparkling star appears

Twinkling though the wispy water vapors

Presenting itself as one of the many

Also known as the sole primordial sun

At times the loneliness of that is noticed

When those clusters cloud my moonlit view

She’s nowhere to be seen

So I sit

Breathing in with that

Breathing out, letting go of that

Because she’s always there

And when I forget

When I can’t see her

I remember

I remember her love tucked snuggly into my mothering heart

While gazing up at the ever changing

Ever flowing patterns mingling on your heavenly canvas

Safe

Secure

Nurtured

Through the love of Venus

Aligned so elegantly with the passion of Jupiter

So widen my perspective

In this shiny midnight’s awakening

Remove my limited obstacles

Show me your auspicious glory

In this most splendid masterpiece called life

Beauty displayed in God’s Mural tonight

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Thought About

Thought about:

Brushing my teeth
Taking a shower
Getting out of bed
Taking my vitamins

Thought about:

Eating breakfast
Putting my walking shoes on
Calling the doctor
Opening my email
Calling my friends back

Thought about:

Not doing today
The to do list
About writing a to-do list
How much we do
The expectations to do

Thought about:

Being
Creating a to-be list
Being for no reason
To just be

Thought about:

The wonder I might see
The wonder I may be
And how wonderful that all seems

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Find This Place in Me

Lover of mine

Take the time

To find this place in me

Hover there for a while

Dwell into me

Breathe

Skip your lips over the nape of my neck

Drag your stubble slowly to my collarbone

Soften your eyes

Into mine

Rest your head on my breast

Listen to my heart

Be with me

Together

We can traverse  these passageways

Simultaneously

Discovering this place in me

Discovering this place in you

Together

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Behind the Scene

Imagine the view
Behind the view finder

The one who imagines
The digital image projected on to the screen

Reflecting the perception
Of the beauty unseen

The body
The one nobody sees

When the wind blows her honey colored strands of hair
When grounded firmly with the coolness of the wet sand seeping between her toes

When stripped vulnerable and free
The sun warming her goose pimpled summer skin

When holding this jagged and raw landscape in mind 
The wonder of the moment stops the frames of time

A mere pixel image of her heart's view
Somehow it's captured with the wink of an aperture

Sprinkled into depicting what seems to be true
While standing still, the view finds her

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Grass

At first, it looks like your dead

And I want to say, forget it

Leave you in your own grave

Of dry brittleness

Parched

Prickly

Pathetic

Prematurely aged

I neglected you

I projected you

I let you go

I released my need for you to be a certain way

And I think, what if I paid more attention to you

What if I give you a little more care

Would you care to grow with me

Would it be possible for you to massage my feet with your softness again

Could I just remember to feed you with my liquid

To just water you with my essence

For just a few minutes

To quench your thirst

For just a small amount of effort

Perhaps I could remind you

To bring you back to the beauty that you already are:

Deeply rooted

Strong as crab grass

Persistent as the retriever running with the ball above you

Resilient as the worms tunneling beneath you

How nice it would be to cartwheel into you again

To feel the cool strength of you between my fingers and toes

To see the suppleness of your varying blades swaying in the wind
To see you alive in your rich saturation

Drinking in your sweet nectar with the rising sun
To smell you mingled in the morning’s precipitation

Come back to me 
Come back to me my lovely, lovely green grass

Written during the 2015 California drought